Jonny Lang

Jonny Lang's coming to Dallas and I'll be down in Southeast Texas working on houses working with youth.

Sometimes I wonder about this life I've chosen.

Surrendering of the will and all that good stuff.

I want to be Christ-conscious and not Kathryn-conscious . . . . . .but when faced with seeing one of your favorite artists and sacrificing to serve the people the Good Lord has called you to serve, it's easy to look up to the sky and wonder why.

I'm so selfish and materialistic. I'm so self-motivated. I often think in my relationship with the Lord that it is more selfishly motivated than really for the Glory of God.

Consider, in Bible College I read about George Mueller and his famous prayer for the removal of the fog. I desired to have that kind of faith. But why?! Because I wanted to pray in accordance with God's will so that my prayers would be answered immediately. Not really that I wanted to see Christ glorified in my life.

Lately, I've gone back to contemplating. George Mueller had such amazing faith because he set his mind and whole self to stay focused on the Lord ever increasingly in every moment because of His infinite worth.

I know He is infinitely worthy. I desire to praise Him as such and bring glory to Him. I desire that my life portray how infinitely worthy His truly is.

However, my selfish and rotten self kicks in and lies to me telling me that all this self-sacrifice is not really worth it. The flesh lies and says look at the immediate. Look at what's right in front of you. You have chosen a place with no one your age, and no prospects for marriage. Are you stupid or something??? Go to the Jonny Lang concert. Blow off those youth and their eternal condition. Do something for yourself.

I am doing something for myself. I am resting in the Sovereignty and Supremacy of Christ. He knows my needs, and He knows that I am a girl with girl emotions and desires. I HOPE in Him. I confidently lay all of my requests at His feet and I dance for joy that He takes them and fills my heart with His love.